Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.
I have a theory about humans. I think that we mainly consist of two things. The soul and the brain. They are two separate entities, completely unrelated to one another, that live inside of us. They are, what some people refer to as the head and the heart. The soul could be thought of as a bright light that floats through our bodies, while the brain is a gooey pink lump inside our skulls. Because of this, it’s only natural to assume that the brain houses all of our insecurities and worries. The brain is sensitive and nervous. It panics in difficult situations and worries that no one likes it. It also thinks about life in a negative fashion and believes that it will never be good enough. It’s cautious around the soul, as they are completely opposite to one another. For many people, I believe that it rules the body more than the soul does. I’m not a big fan of the brain, although I definitely recognize why it’s necessary. That sounds like such an idiotic thing to say but I think my brain holds me back an awful lot. However, I’m always working on preventing that from being the case.
The soul is vibrant. It’s where our hopes and dreams originate (what a cliché). It’s very often held back by the brain. The soul is the one who falls in love. It’s what you see when a person can’t stop laughing, or they’re amazed by a breath-taking view. It’s so beautiful and I am such a fan of it. I love to see someone’s soul while they speak about something that they’re passionate about or someone they love. The soul cannot be broken, although sometimes we may feel as though it is. This is just the brain tricking us. It is always there inside of us. When we go on a journey of self-discovery we are searching for the soul. When we are doing something that we love, we are living through our soul. We should always try and view the world from it. Kindness, compassion, friendships and music are all products of the soul. It holds our wild side and urges us to take risks. It longs for freedom, love and purpose.
Often, the soul and the brain are at war with one another. The brain worries for the soul and stops it from being free. The soul resents the brain because of this. How often do you get annoyed at yourself for thinking certain things or being scared? This is the soul, resenting the brain and further alienating it. The soul can’t understand the brain because it consists of beauty and positivity while the brain does not. The brain gets tired of fighting the soul resulting in an indifference that can be, at times, dangerous for our mental health.
So what is the point of having two separate entities, that are almost the opposite of one another, inside of us? More importantly how do we keep a balance between the two? Do we let them continue to war with one another? Do we try to make them agree? The answer is no. My proposal is this. Develop a friendship between the two. It won’t be easy. Up until now they’ve probably been weary of one another. But you can overcome this. Let your soul guide your brain. Make your soul tell your brain not to be afraid of letting go, of taking risks and of living a colourful life. Let it soothe your brain when it’s scared instead of scoffing at it. Over time your soul will come to laugh good naturedly at your brain when it’s being too serious. The brain will learn to laugh at itself and shut up unless it’s necessary. The brain will understand the soul and relate to it. Over time, your happiness won’t be a question any longer. The soul will teach the brain to be spontaneous and to act on impulse. Things won’t be so serious and when confronted with an issue your brain and soul will solve it together. When this is achieved it is a truly beautiful moment and one we should all strive for. Of course I could be wrong and this could all be bullshit that I think up in the moments before I fall asleep. Who knows?
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