Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.
I am not going to open this letter by hoping that you’ve achieved everything that I wish you will, because that would be an insult to you. There’s no question as to whether you’ve reached for your dreams or not. But I do hope that you’ve found satisfaction through these achievements. I hope that you don’t have any empty voids or sources of shame that are unresolved.
I am not going to be so naïve as to wish that you have lived a sheltered life untouched by sadness and pain. I do hope that you’ve managed to deal with all of the negative things in a way that makes you proud. I get excited when I think about you. I hope that you’re beautiful inside and out. I hope that you have a loud, infectious laugh and a bright light in your eyes. I hope that you remember me. The me that’s currently lying in bed and writing this book. I hope that you’re proud of me, because I’m proud of me. Everything I’ve done has been to honour us and I like to think that I’ve done a pretty good job so far.
I hope that you’ve met many people and have read many books. I hope that you’ve listened to music that touches your soul and have eaten lots of food that made you feel good. I hope that you’ve laughed, cried, been inspired and been inspirational. I hope that you smile with pride when you look at your reflection in the mirror and that you radiate confidence. I hope that you’ve helped people and have shown them love. I hope that you’ve repaid your family and friends for all that they’ve done to you.
I hope that you’ve visited many exotic places and have lived in different areas. I hope that you’ve experienced everything there is to experience and that you are fluent in French. I hope that you’ve lived a slightly immoral, extremely colourful life where you’ve been untouched by hard drugs or addiction. I really hope that you’re not an asshole who takes herself too seriously but I seriously doubt that that’s the case.
I hope that you still love animals as much as I do and I hope that you have pets if your living situation allows it. I hope that you’re not a cynical person, because it’s important to remember that just because you’re no longer naïve, it does not mean that you should be cynical or bitter.
I hope that you’ve had many nights out, many nights in, lots of coffees, lunches and fancy dinners. I hope that you’ve dated many men and fallen in love a few times. Although if you haven’t fallen in love, then that’s okay. That’s not me doubting you by the way. I have no doubt that many people have fallen in love with you. I believe that you are irresistible, but if you haven’t returned the feeling then that’s okay.
I hope that you’re smiling while you read this. I hope that you recognise the significance of this book and of the life that I’m currently leading. I hope that you’ve devoted an equal importance to your love life and your career. Overall, I just hope that you are still in love with the world. I’m sure you’re very different to the person that I am but I hope that one thing has stayed the same.
Love you until the end,
This is the final chapter of Who Cares? and it’s actually being published on its second birthday. It’s been an honour to share this book on my website over the past couple of months. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
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