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Category: Laylah Talks

Having a Body Image Disorder in a World Obsessed with Bodies

I’ve had extreme issues around body image for as long as I can remember. I hated the way I looked growing up and I tried to use a lot of different methods to make myself look different. Some of these were simple things like adopting a good skincare routine from a young age to develop smooth “feminine” skin. Others were more harmful, like starving … Read More Having a Body Image Disorder in a World Obsessed with Bodies

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My First Day in the Hospital

I awake early and look over my bags. I packed last night, but I have no idea whether I’ve even brought the right stuff. I’ve never stayed in a hospital before. I’ve never known anyone who was in a psych ward. Sitting on my bed, I have a few silent tears. My room is a complete mess. It hasn’t been cleaned in weeks. There … Read More My First Day in the Hospital

How it Feels to be Twenty.

I suppose I was quite nervous about turning twenty. I thought it was the age where you declare yourself an adult. The age where everyone expects you to stand on your own two feet. Although I don’t know why that would make me nervous because I’ve pretty much been standing on my own two feet for a long time now. I was surprised to … Read More How it Feels to be Twenty.

Forgiving the People Who Let Me Down When I Was in the Hospital

There are so many people who let me down when I was in the hospital. More than I ever could have imagined there’d be. Being honest, I’m quite bitter about it. But I need to let go of that bitterness. One thing I never wanted to be was bitter. I’ve always believed that bitterness halts you. It keeps you in a moment that’s already … Read More Forgiving the People Who Let Me Down When I Was in the Hospital

30 Facts About me.

Here are 30 facts about me that you may or may not know.

Embrace the Grey- Let’s Banish Black and White Thinking

We live in a diverse world, I think most people see that nowadays. It’s a world where people are all on incredibly different journeys. Journeys most of us haven’t even begun to understand. Almost every day, I read an article or book about someone’s life which helps me to see things from a new perspective. I think this is the case for many of … Read More Embrace the Grey- Let’s Banish Black and White Thinking

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I’m a Classic Libra.

Overall, I think I’ve been able to channel these traits into quite a positive existence. You may be a cynic and think that it’s a coincidence that I possess the traits that a libra is supposed to and that’s fine. Just know that I’m going to keep listening to the good things in my horoscopes and trying not to ignore the bad things. I’m not at all religious or spiritual, allow me this fantasy at least. 

An Empathetic Gesture.

She’ll probably forever be in my thoughts as a person whose small action eased my burden a tiny bit.

Am I a Victim or a Survivor?

Currently I’m in an odd stage. I can see some of my survivor tendencies returning to me, but I’m still quite aware of the things I’m a victim of.

I Need Your Help

It’s no longer enough for you to read about my struggles, sympathise and clothes a tab.

Reasons I’m Not Grateful for my Mental Illness

Depression and anorexia don’t just make you sad and hungry. They affect almost every aspect of your life. 

A Letter to my Future Self.

I am not going to be so naïve as to wish that you have lived a sheltered life untouched by sadness and pain.

Getting Naked.

The first time I remember being uncomfortable with my body I was 10.

Reasons I’m Grateful for my Mental Illness.

There are so many reasons that I’m not grateful for my mental illness. I’ll be writing about those soon, but I thought I’d start with the positives.

My Reading List

“I have a collection of books that I adore.”

I Have Low Self Esteem (Who Knew?)

I was participating in one of the therapeutic workshops that my life seems to consist of these days when we began discussing low self esteem. It came as quite a shock to me to realise that I suffer from it. You may scoff and think “Laylah Beattie? Low self esteem? Bitch where?” And I would have thought the same. But when I heard the … Read More I Have Low Self Esteem (Who Knew?)

Dear Parents

This chapter is about trying to give you an insight into the mind of your child and maybe giving you some tips on dealing with them.

A Modern World

There are many other topics that I could outline here relating to the modern world but I will not.

Mourning my Twenties

My illness is the thing that finally got me and I’m devastated about that. 

The Wild Life

But being spontaneous is not at all dangerous.