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Category: Season 3

Having a Body Image Disorder in a World Obsessed with Bodies

I’ve had extreme issues around body image for as long as I can remember. I hated the way I looked growing up and I tried to use a lot of different methods to make myself look different. Some of these were simple things like adopting a good skincare routine from a young age to develop smooth “feminine” skin. Others were more harmful, like starving … Read More Having a Body Image Disorder in a World Obsessed with Bodies

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My First Day in the Hospital

I awake early and look over my bags. I packed last night, but I have no idea whether I’ve even brought the right stuff. I’ve never stayed in a hospital before. I’ve never known anyone who was in a psych ward. Sitting on my bed, I have a few silent tears. My room is a complete mess. It hasn’t been cleaned in weeks. There … Read More My First Day in the Hospital

Forgiving the People Who Let Me Down When I Was in the Hospital

There are so many people who let me down when I was in the hospital. More than I ever could have imagined there’d be. Being honest, I’m quite bitter about it. But I need to let go of that bitterness. One thing I never wanted to be was bitter. I’ve always believed that bitterness halts you. It keeps you in a moment that’s already … Read More Forgiving the People Who Let Me Down When I Was in the Hospital

Embrace the Grey- Let’s Banish Black and White Thinking

We live in a diverse world, I think most people see that nowadays. It’s a world where people are all on incredibly different journeys. Journeys most of us haven’t even begun to understand. Almost every day, I read an article or book about someone’s life which helps me to see things from a new perspective. I think this is the case for many of … Read More Embrace the Grey- Let’s Banish Black and White Thinking

An Empathetic Gesture.

She’ll probably forever be in my thoughts as a person whose small action eased my burden a tiny bit.

Am I a Victim or a Survivor?

Currently I’m in an odd stage. I can see some of my survivor tendencies returning to me, but I’m still quite aware of the things I’m a victim of.

I Need Your Help

It’s no longer enough for you to read about my struggles, sympathise and clothes a tab.

Reasons I’m Not Grateful for my Mental Illness

Depression and anorexia don’t just make you sad and hungry. They affect almost every aspect of your life. 

Reasons I’m Grateful for my Mental Illness.

There are so many reasons that I’m not grateful for my mental illness. I’ll be writing about those soon, but I thought I’d start with the positives.

I Have Low Self Esteem (Who Knew?)

I was participating in one of the therapeutic workshops that my life seems to consist of these days when we began discussing low self esteem. It came as quite a shock to me to realise that I suffer from it. You may scoff and think “Laylah Beattie? Low self esteem? Bitch where?” And I would have thought the same. But when I heard the … Read More I Have Low Self Esteem (Who Knew?)

Mourning my Twenties

My illness is the thing that finally got me and I’m devastated about that. 

Building My Nest.

I adore my bed. The prospect of falling in love with a man terrifies me because of the possibility that I might have to share a bed with him.

#MeToo

I had a scary sexual experience with a man in power.