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Spaces I’m Unwelcome in

I have a certain job to do when I’m made feel unwelcome.

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Reasons I’m Not Grateful for my Mental Illness

It’s difficult to find any reason to be grateful for my mental illness. I could go on all day about shitty things that I have to put up with, but here are some things that people may not understand about the nature of both depression and anorexia. They don’t just make you sad and hungry. They affect almost every aspect of your life.

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A Letter to my Future Self.

Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.

Dear Laylah,

I am not going to open this letter by hoping that you’ve achieved everything that I wish you will, because that would be an insult to you. There’s no question as to whether you’ve reached for your dreams or not. But I do hope that you’ve found satisfaction through these achievements. I hope that you don’t have any empty voids or sources of shame that are unresolved.

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I was on First Dates!

My bedroom eyes came to RTE, I was interviewed by Alison Spittle, my best friend came on my YouTube channel and I’ve been writing about my nervous breakdown.

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Getting Naked.

It’s been a year since “Exposition,” my first nude shoot was released. To celebrate this, here’s a collection off essays about the experience that were published in my third book “Stay Wild.”

The first time I remember being uncomfortable with my body I was 10. I don’t know if this was the beginning of my struggles with exposing my body, but it’s the first time I realised that what I was feeling mightn’t necessarily be normal.

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Misgendering

Since changing my pronouns, I’ve been misgendered a number of times.

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Reasons I’m Grateful for my Mental Illness.

There are so many reasons that I’m not grateful for my mental illness. I’ll be writing about those soon, but I thought I’d start with the positives. It’s snowing outside and I’m feeling cosy and I don’t want to have to think about the ways which I’ve suffered. Adversity brings good things with it. And being ill has definitely improved my character in a number of ways.

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A Q&A with my Best Friend.

My best friend Bridgin Boyle is featured on my channel.

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My Reading List

Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.

I know. I’m talking about books again. You’re probably asking yourself whether I ever shut up about them. The answer is no, but I believe that I told you how entitled and annoying I can be in the opening of this book. I have a collection of books that I adore. I only started this collection about a year ago but it has grown a good bit since then. I’ve read a lot more books than the ones on this list but these are my favourites. I keep hard copies on a specific shelf in my room in my Mam’s house. I may have read these books in eBook form or borrowed them from a friend but they had such an impact on me that I would then buy my own hard copy to keep with me. I am including this list because I believe that I learned many things from each of these books and because they have impacted my own experiences and my own writing.

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The Alison Spittle Show-Laylah Beattie

In Episode 48 – Alison meets writer, broadcaster and model, Laylah Beattie. They talk about being the Regina George in school, defence mechanisms, favourite Irish murderers, being the first transgender person on First Dates, being targeted by right-wing bloggers, what the food’s like at a psychiatric hospital, the patron saint of television and going through a nun’s skip.

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I Have Low Self Esteem (Who Knew?)

I was participating in one of the therapeutic workshops that my life seems to consist of these days when we began discussing low self esteem. It came as quite a shock to me to realise that I suffer from it. You may scoff and think “Laylah Beattie? Low self esteem? Bitch where?” And I would have thought the same. But when I heard the details of this particular affliction, I realised that I really do fit the bill.

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I Had Sex For Revenge


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Dear Parents

Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.

Hello parents. How are you? Tired? Angry? Too busy to talk? Who can blame you. Your job is difficult. Kids are horrible. Teenagers are worse. And then they just leave at the end of it all. Why does anyone do it? This chapter is about trying to give you an insight into the mind of your child and maybe giving you some tips on dealing with them. What’s that you ask? Why should you listen to me? Oh don’t worry, I have no doubt that you’ll completely ignore any of the things that you disagree with and that’s completely your right as a parent. But I am going to speak about some things that may relate to your teenager. They probably won’t because god knows, I was never your average teenager. But nevertheless, let me begin.

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I Had Sex With a Married Man


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A Modern World

Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.

There’s no denying that the world has changed an awful lot over time. Sometimes it’s unclear whether we should be grateful for all of this change or not. But as much as the world changes, it’s very apparent that there are sections of society that continue to not make sense and that refuse to change.

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David and Kyle. First Dates Ireland.

The God of Love has a helping hand from Mateo and the rest of the staff as they welcome 19-year old-David, who is transgender, and their uniquely open-minded date, Kyle from Cork.

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RTÉ 2Fm: The Nicky Byrne Show. Kyle and Laylah.

 

FM104 Guilt Trip With Laylah

First Dates clips.





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Model Breaks Boundaries as She Appears as First Transgender Love Seeker on First Dates Ireland.

Wexford model Laylah — who was born a male called David — began the ­transition process two years ago and ­officially changed her name last September.

And the 20-year-old blogger said she was happy to be the first trans person to appear on the RTE show.

Laylah told the Irish Sun: “I applied for the show knowing I would be the first transgender person to appear on it.

 

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