Now that I’ve made my ebook “Who Cares? Life for an Irish Transgender Teen” free to the public (you can download the full thing here), I’ve decided to publish the chapters here on my website. Below is a chapter from this book which was published in April 2016.
One of the hardest things for me to accept is that there are bad people in this world. It disgusts me, terrifies me and shocks me to know that I, or the people that I love could come into contact with any one of these people at any time. A part of me is intrigued. How do these people become this way? Are they in any way redeemable? Can we solve these people’s problems? Were they born like this? I ask myself these questions every time I hear that someone’s been murdered. Or when I see online videos of people abusing animals. Or when I watch in horror as unspeakable acts of terrorism occur. Hearing these kind of things weighs on my soul. I wish I didn’t get so affected but at the same time, I don’t. I’m glad I feel so strongly about these things because that’s reality and although it’s important to lose touch with reality at times, it’s also important to pay close attention when reality becomes as horrific as this. The most recent example I can think of is the Paris attacks on the 13th of November 2015. I was alone in my apartment when I heard. I began to read article after article on what was happening. I couldn’t believe how horrific it was. I got extremely upset that night and went to make myself a hot chocolate. But nothing could remove the attacks from my soul. I sat in my dark room trying to fall asleep but unfortunately I couldn’t for a long time. I finally had a very disturbed sleep full of nightmares and worries for a few hours.